Ahh, yesterday was so bitter sweet. No more worries about Dante. But that is the past---history.
Im going to visit my mom and hopefully my brother (if he is at home) today and speak with them about my decision to move on from here. I've mentioned it to them for a few years now, and each time I was ready to leave I was held back and I guess they just figured it was all just a dream with talk. I don't know, but that is my conclusion. Family dynamics are what they are and that is all I have to say on that matter in this context.
I am tired of New England Winters, and I am especially bored with Boston area living. I grew up here and have always come back here after travels, but it is no longer the Boston of my youth, it is no longer the Boston of my memories, and it is no longer my Boston. It is a new Boston and for good or bad that is what it is. I have no desire to fit in or remake myself to fit. My desire to move out west has come to a head and the reality is I am going no matter what happens. My lease is up and I have terminated any renewal. I'm going. No more health scares involving family, no more pup health scares and no more obligations to get in the way.
View Larger Map ... at Yirrell Beach, in Winthrop Massachusetts.
The house is owned by one of the guys from the old neighborhood, Freddie, who used to hang out in Maverick Square. Nice place with some pretty decent folks and family. Good neighbors too.
Some of us ended up watching the Winthrop fireworks display from Coughlin Park. Pretty cool. Small scale without the mobs. I went home right after and had a sound sleep for the first time in a while. I woke up and missed the pup's company, but at the same time I was appreciative to have the worry about the what to do and the when of it all lifted off of my shoulders. The acceptance of the finality of it all...sigh...no pain, no gain/no growth.
btw,
The best Fireworks display I ever saw were a few years ago (7/8?) on a rain-out day July 6(?), at the Washington Hotel in the White Mountains of New Hampshire.
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Dark as hell up there. In my mind you could light a match there and it would illuminate the sky. So the fireworks there were something I'd never experienced before.
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